I am sitting here, watching Molly sleep, wondering when she got to be so big.
I remember being able to set her in the Boppy and her just watching me, like “Wow, my mom is sooo interesting”. She would take a binky when she cried and would happy stare at a ceiling fan forever in amazement of its ceiling fan-ness.
Now it’s like her attention span is that of a goldfish. She flops from one place to another, doing different things. It’s almost like she needs separate activity stations to keep herself entertained.
I also remember when tummy time used to look like this:
And now she is crawling with some random walking in between (running, as well, can you believe it?).
I often wonder where my teeny little baby went. It almost feels like she has grown so quickly that I missed it, or something. So many things have changed about her—she has this titanic personality where she makes it known if she is displeased, whereas when she was little she was so docile. The one thing that hasn’t changed is her inability to sleep through the night.
I mentioned a while back that I was attempting sleep training via some sparse CIO among other methods, but that kind of went out the window. If I put her to bed on her own at night, she now will cry for a couple minutes and then fall asleep, but she still wakes every 3 hours wanting to nurse. Last week she had a night where she was awake every 45 minutes and I finally decided at 4:30 AM to stop nursing her and turned on Yo Gabba Gabba, which, as crazy of a show as it is, soothed her and she fell back to sleep on her own.
I am so jealous of the moms who have babies who sleep all night and have for a while. I sometimes wonder if I went back and did things differently with Molly, maybe she would have better sleep habits now.
I guess I could try new methods with the next baby…….20 years from now 
Acia says:
I hear ya on the poor sleeping habits. Finnley (almost 11 months) is the worst sleeper, she usually wakes up every 45-90 minutes, all night long. Cosleeping has been our saving grace, since it saves me from having to fully wake up and I can just roll over and nurse her. But I agree – I often wonder if I had done things differently (i.e. no nursing to sleep, no cosleeping, putting her down drowsy but awake from a young age, etc.) then maybe she’d be a better sleeper… But no matter how bad things get, I just remind myself that she’s only a baby for a short while, she WILL eventually sleep through the night, and in 10, 15, 25 years, I have no doubt that I’ll be missing our late-night snuggles (though I probably won’t miss the sleep deprivation!).
April says:
Yes indeed, they do grow up very fast. My DD is 9 months old and watching her play is just amazing. I miss my tiny little newborn but I’m loving this active, fun, bright little girl.
Gini says:
Yeah- well as for the whole sleep training thing, nothing one method worked for us. We would go in a pat her back to soothe her and not pick her up and she got even madder- like “why are you coming in ehre if you are nto going to pick me up?” SO we stopped going in at all. She cried five minutes the first night, four minutes the second night, and so on. Then after she was sleeping for about ten hours a night for a month or so, she started waking up at midnight again. If i went in and turned the tv on, she went straight back to sleep. Now I turn the tv on when I put her down and she doesn’t wake up too often anymore. Hope that helps, but don’t think there is one way that works for every baby, and don’t let people make you think that your baby’s sleep issues are a reflection of you as her mother. Not even close. Happy Friday babe!
Hannah says:
I completely understand!! My 22-month-old still does not sleep through the night. She is finally down to only waking up once or twice a night (Thanks be to God!). I co-slept with her the first 11 months (I stopped co-sleeping when I learned I was pregnant again). I am trying to do things differently this time to see if this one will sleep better.
StacyH says:
Just perusing mom blogs and found yours … my little boy is 3 months old and is doing what you are reminiscing on, though a little less than a month ago. Your comment about cieling fans made me laugh.
I’m not far enough in this to have any advice whatsoever … but I know I’m probably doing EVERYTHING wrong in regards to sleep. But if your little one is happy and healthy … I think you are doing great!